Something shifted in me this week and as a result, I’ve started something new.
2025 is my year of inner transformation. I’ve committed to being subject no.1, using my own life as an experiment in the journey of becoming, of self-remembering, of aligning to the truth of who I came here to be.
It’s also the year I’m sharing more of that journey publicly. I already do that each week through this blog, but I’ve decided to do something even more personal. Something that challenges me, stretches me out of my comfort zone, and allows me to grow in new ways. Maybe even see things about myself I haven’t yet seen.
This week, I launched a private, subscriber-only podcast. It’s where I record short voice notes capturing lessons I’m learning in real time, moments from daily life and how I’m navigating this one wild and precious life I have.
I’ve recorded four episodes already. They’re all equally awkward and equally real. Not perfect, definitely not polished. There’s not even a jingle!
As I’ve been riding the emotional wave and questioning whether I’d really go through with it and share this podcast, I’ve realised that this awkwardness is part of the transformation. Doing something that feels uncomfortable but serves the person I’m becoming.
I’ve said it before: inner transformation is the biggest negotiation of your life. And I’m learning that the better I get at negotiating with myself, the more capable I become in my negotiations with others.
Because when you change on the inside, the world around you changes too.
So, if you’re navigating your own journey of becoming or just need a reminder that you’re not the only awkward human in the room, you’re welcome to join me on this adventure.
The name of the podcast came to me in meditation before I’d even considered starting one. I took it as a message to get moving. I had wanted Q2 to be when the rubber hit the road, but April felt like a holding pattern. I kept delaying the next step in my inner work. Change is scary. And when you’ve spent a lifetime worrying about the judgement of others, it’s easy to hesitate.
But stalling wasn’t the answer. You don’t get where you want to go by standing still. I needed to take some steps, even if they were baby ones, to get my fear of the unknown under control and walk the path of alignment again with more confidence.
If you’d like to come along for the ride and witness my messy journey of inner transformation, you’re welcome to subscribe. The link is below.
Let's Get the Stuck Outta Here
I also finished reading Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender by David R. Hawkins, and I know this book will profoundly change my life if I devote myself to the practice he shares.
There’s something incredibly liberating in the simplicity of letting go. Hawkins doesn’t offer another framework to fix yourself. He offers a way to finally lay the struggle down.
The premise is deceptively simple. The emotions we suppress, deny or avoid don’t just vanish. They get stored in the body, cloud the mind, and quietly shape how we see and move through the world. We think we’re making choices, but often we’re just reacting from old emotional residue.
What Hawkins offers is emotional freedom. Not through analysis or overthinking, but through surrender. Feeling our emotions fully. Letting them rise without resistance. And then letting them go.
He calls it the mechanism of surrender. It’s not some lofty spiritual ideal. It is a moment-by-moment invitation to soften. To stop gripping. To let the energy of fear, guilt, anger, pride, or whatever’s present, move through you instead of run you.
This repeated process begins to peel back the layers. Beneath the noise and contraction is something quieter. A deeper presence. A return to clarity, ease and peace. Not because we fought for it, but because we made space for it.
Letting Go isn’t about bypassing the hard stuff. It’s about allowing it to move, so we’re no longer stuck in it. It’s not about becoming someone new. It’s about becoming who we are, without the weight.
So, if you’re feeling heavy, stuck, or like you’ve outgrown the coping patterns that once kept you safe, maybe the invitation isn’t to do more, but to let go. Not to force a breakthrough, but to soften into a breakdown. Not to figure it all out, but to feel your way through.
You don’t have to carry it all. You never did.
Letting go isn’t giving up. It’s giving yourself back.
I also wrote my April One Pager as the month drew to a close, and I could finally see all the ways I was holding myself back.
It’s confronting to see how often my ego has me betraying myself. That’s the power of writing these One Pagers. There’s no hiding from your true intentions versus your lived reality.
I’m seeing the same pattern of self-betrayal come up again and again. It’s like my ego keeps me stuck in a familiar life because it feels safer there. But now I see it. And I know every time I repeat the pattern, I delay access to the future I want.
What’s become clear is this: playing at transformation feels worse than going through it.
So, it feels like May is going to be a big month of change. And it all begins with telling myself the truth and honouring it.
As I sign off, I leave you with a question to reflect on:
Where are you not being honest with yourself, and what might change if you allowed yourself to tell the truth?
Keep going and keep growing.
Love Glin x
P.S. Three wins from my week:
1. Getting myself unstuck
I took messy, imperfect action by starting my new private podcast without overthinking it or talking myself out of it. It feels good to give myself space to ponder my own thoughts and share my journey with others as a way to discover and remember more of who I am.
2. Seeing my own bullshit
Deepening my Human Design practice is helping me spot all the ways I’ve been operating out of alignment with my gifts. As a Generator, I’m noticing just how often I overcommit to others even when it doesn’t light me up. I’m not willing to ignore my body anymore. I’m ready to pause, check in, and feel the fire within before I say yes.
If you want a fun way to learn more about Human Design without taking it too seriously, check out Emma Dunwoody’s Human Design Unhinged page on Instagram — it’s a hoot.
3. Surrendering Guilt
It’s a small win, but I surrendered the guilt I felt for skipping Parkrun yesterday and choosing a lie-in instead. I know it’s minor, but I’m starting to see how guilt shows up in so many areas of my life and quietly drives a lot of my behaviour. Thanks to David Hawkins’ book, I can now recognise this more clearly and practise letting go so I can choose more powerfully.
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